It will still be you .

I admit I was just jealous

I was just too used to being what I am , a performer.

I just couldn't sit and watch them dance , the longing of just joining them on stage is so strong.

Seeing the juniors being able to perform , I really envy you know.

I hated the group but why I just feel this way .

Why must my ego always be so high.

I'm just no one , no one .

I always thinking too highly of myself , when I wasn't that great , that perfect in skills .

Techniques are not that great , Elegance weren't in place , Skills still have flaws.

I don't get it sometimes myself .

I yearn to dance , I missed how much I loved dance and wanted to just perform , just dance for whoever I can .

But why there is the laziness there , I just want to work hard .

Why couldn't I ..

I just want to get along with others and enjoy whatever I can .

Why am I always on my own , always that independent , thinking that I'm so capable.

I'm not a star , not yet someone that everyone would enjoys the performance .

I missed everything especially the days I fought so hard , training were torturous but I tolerate , just for the award , just for the performance, just for myself.

Those tears , sweats , laughter , bruises and aching , were just so vivid .

I promised not to cry

But I couldn't fight the tears back

You seems happier with them compared to being with me

I won't tell you about all these too.

Just like what I said before , Nothing lasts forever .

Since we knew that long ago, then whatever in the future doesn't really matters to us .

As long as you are happy , I'm willing to do anything.

Because you are way more important than myself alredy.

You told me not to fall in love with you too deeply

But it couldn't  be controlled

So what if its going to be difficult for me , its still my willingness .

Whatever will be , will be.

You are an unknown to me just like usual.

Nothing change actually.

You didn't want to open up , no one can do anything inclusive of me .

To keep or to let me know , I have to say I'm immune to it already.

I realised you are really happier with your friends ..

Just like always , I'm not constraining your freedom .

Do what you want .

Though we know its just soon or later , we are going to be apart..

Thats all I can .

Your life , your choice.

Do something that you think is worth it while it is sinful , then do it .

You don't trust anyone anymore , so do anyone will trust you anymore.

I gave whatever I could .

I know I'm not superwoman .

I know I'm not a heroin.

I know I'm not great at all , so don't act as one right?

You told me you would prove me wrong .

You told me you will change .

You told me whatever I wrote , I won't regret .

But , will you ?

Comfort , Console , Advices , Scoldings , Quarrels , Blaming , Chance , Disappointment , Trust .

In the end , it turn out to be disappointment again .

I got no rights anymore , If you treated me as a friend before , take my advices .

If you hate me now , then so be it.

I know I'm nothing better too.

Because all I know is to talk and never actions .

Always the passion of my life .

The meaning that I'm living .

But somehow , it made me being afraid of it.

They told me to keep going no matter what , because dance is always the point in my life.

We should do what we want and what we love most right?

But , I was afraid that I'm unable to acheive my dream...

That failure made me lost all my confidence ...

雨天。

好冷，我也好想你。

突然下的雨， 让我好想哭。

每一个雷声，让我更害怕。

现在你在想什么，做什么呢。

打了简讯，按了号码 ， 我都不敢再按下去了。。。

I love the rainy days because no one will know that the water on my face were the rain drops or my  tears...

If I just held a smile on my face , no one would know that I cried.

Isn't that how wonderful rain does for us ..?

I'm feeling bad about it.

But what can I do .

Nothing .

I promised you , so trust me , I will do it just for you .

Sorry ...

Am I suppose to feel that way ?

Don't tell me it recurring again.

Yes , I hate the way you said that.

You didn't consider about others.

All you thought was about yourself.

Don't you know people are tired and aching and nervous from yesterday's practice.

It's really unreasonable of you.

You vent your anger upon me.

Your bloody attitude towards me, of course my attitude sucks too.

So what if you are the teacher , so what if Im just a student.

Yes , I counted on you on my dance all this while but , your ego was way too high.

I have a high ego you know.

Dont think about me performing for you ever again , since you said that yourself.

Its your own words .

Find others for you , find others to perform for you , find those who can tolerate you .

I dont care .

Why are all these happening again ...

Go away . Seriously.. =[

Maybe I don't understand .

Maybe I don't know how great is your feeling for him.

Yes there were miracles in life, but this ?

I dont know.

Maybe you were right to continue wait for him then ...

Dearest...

Yes , I got to admit I was really angry about it yesterday.

You thought that I was treating you or him as a subsitute to entertain me ..

I felt really bad inside.

Really...

I guess I won't tell anyone how I feel next time round then.

Save the trouble from everything